Yzabel / April 4, 2013

What’s Left of Me by Kat Zhang

My rating: [rating=3]

Summary:

I should not exist. But I do.

Eva and Addie started out the same way as everyone else—two souls woven together in one body, taking turns controlling their movements as they learned how to walk, how to sing, how to dance. But as they grew, so did the worried whispers. Why aren’t they settling? Why isn’t one of them fading? The doctors ran tests, the neighbors shied away, and their parents begged for more time. Finally Addie was pronounced healthy and Eva was declared gone. Except, she wasn’t . . .

For the past three years, Eva has clung to the remnants of her life. Only Addie knows she’s still there, trapped inside their body. Then one day, they discover there may be a way for Eva to move again. The risks are unimaginable-hybrids are considered a threat to society, so if they are caught, Addie and Eva will be locked away with the others. And yet . . . for a chance to smile, to twirl, to speak, Eva will do anything.

Review:

3.5 stars more than 3, but I’m not sure if I’d wish to go to 4. I’ll have to think about it.

On the plus side, the narrative is quite unique, in that we see things from Eva’s point of view—Eca, who’s the “recessive” soul, the one who should have vanished long ago, and is all but an onlooker, unable to move, act or even simply speak physically. While this could’ve lent to a boring way of relating events one after the other, Kat Zhang manages to give her a voice that makes her very present, very involved; Eva refers to things such as “our hands, our eyes” to speak of Addie and herself, and her personality as well as how she lived through events quickly pulled me into the story.

I liked the relationship between the two “sisters/souls”, how they have different personalities, happen to fight, then make up, always having to pretend that they’re one person only, but doing their best to live together. Eva refuses to fade, and Addie clearly refuses to let her fade as well, wanting her by her side no matter what, no matter the risks. Perhaps Addie came off as a more egotistic person, and wasn’t always very likeable; on the other hand, this isn’t so surprising.

Also, the hybrids are an interesting concept, and I think the reader is led quite subtly to learn to recognize which persona is in control: after a while, I felt I didn’t even need Eva’s words to guess who she was looking at or speaking to.

On the downside, and here’s one of the reasons why I’m not giving this book a better mark, the dystopian/alternate history depicted in “What’s Left of Me” wasn’t too clearly drawn in my opinion. I couldn’t sense strong world-building behind it, and I hope that the next book will remedy to that. For instance, we can guess why being a hybrid might be bad (for instance, souls always competing with each other for control of the body, leading to madness) but all the examples of hybrids we’re shown throughout the story are, all in all, quite rational and balanced people, who manage to get along with their other half. Maybe things would’ve been more convincing if there had been a couple of ‘baddies’ thrown in, or anything else, actually, that would’ve shaken off the underlying, nagging feeling of “the hybrids aren’t bad, it’s just the government lying, because this is a dystopian world, period.”

The second reason is that there was a bit of a slump in the middle of the book. There was a sense of danger, of risk, of hidden truths, of secrets, but it wasn’t pushed far enough in my opinion, and so things at the point seemed a little dull. The pace picked up again afterwards, though.

I’ll probably pick the second book, because I still want to know more. I hope that we’ll get to learn more about why all the lies, and that the characters will be as intriguing as they’re in this first installment.